Love Is A Power

I was really unsure as to whether or not I wanted to write this piece. My inspiration for this came from me realizing a negative pattern within myself. I don't attract very good relationships 

Either the person who I get to know turns into a complete and total stranger or I stay with a person who I know for a fact isn't good for me and I end up separating myself emotionally and mentally long before finally pulling the plug and saying “enough is enough”. Why does this happen? I’ll explain why. 

Love is a power. 

It’s almost like another element in a sense. It can either be beautiful and breathtaking. Or it can be dangerous and disruptive. It can leave you high, happy and on cloud 9. Or it can leave you deaf, blind and dumb. In my case, most of the time it has been the latter. I was deaf to what my intuition told me about certain men before I got romantically involved with them, I was blind to their actions during the relationships, and I was dumb for staying way past those relationship’s expiration dates.

I seriously started to think I was cursed or jinxed in some shape or form when it came to love. But as I have delved deeper into my spiritual journey, I came to realize that before I got involved with certain people, I wasn’t very specific those times when I prayed to the universe for love to come into my life. I settled for love that wasn’t suited for my needs. I settled for love that came with “conditions”. I settled for love that was fake.I settled for love that was downright sick, possessive, and obsessive. Sometimes even abusive.

The common denominator in my past dysfunctional relationships was ME. I settled and I accepted “knock off” love instead of the real deal. I seriously dropped the ball. It was beyond painful for me to realize this. Self-Inventory can be a terror on wheels. But it is necessary for growth.

The law of attraction is real. You really have to be careful when it comes to your thoughts and your words. Most importantly, when it comes to manifesting anything at all, be specific. VERY specific. Also focus on what you want instead of what you don’t want.

I had an epiphany and decided to change my prayers. They became more specific and detailed. They changed to me asking for love that is tailored just for me and for what my soul and spirit needs. Love that is innocent and playful. Love that is balanced. Love that just…is. The universe heard me. Now I wait!